Screeching Hault

This is what has happened to my planning...

Image Via Impressions Through Media

I had heard that this was a common thing that many brides faced during the planning process, but I didn't think it could happen to me. I would be immune due to my type-A tendencies. I'm a list-making, post-it-crazed, self-proclaimed master of organization. Road blocks don't happen to brides like me, right? Well hello reality check. Here I am, struggling to even write this post... I think I'd rather take a little nap... Yawn. (Hey, Miss Porcupine and Miss Fox, let's go do something completely wedding-unrelated together!)

Unfortunately, Mr. Hawk gave me a very unwelcome reminder this morning that we are almost exactly five months out from the wedding. (In case you're counting, about 150 days.) Half of me is excited that we're nearing our wedding day, and the other half of me is happily ignorant with my head in the sand (Wedding? What wedding?). In fact, I told Mr. H not to bring it up again because there is too much to be done (and I'd like to enjoy my ignorant bliss for a few days longer.)

I'm a little frustrated with myself for letting this happen. My to-do checklist has gone untouched for nearly a month. Crafting and researching haven't happened. Instead I've spent my time reading about everyone else's planning on the 'bee and have been content to see y'alls progress. I'd like to blame it on the fun of the holidays, my approaching birthday, and upcoming trip to spend time with my family, but I know that excuse can only last so much longer before I'm going to have to take some ownership of my slacking.

Help a Hawk out. How did y'all regain your motivation after hitting a road block? Have any advice to get me off my bum?

Bride Wars!

I know this is silly, but I think it's human nature (or maybe its just me and I'm rationalizing!)... I have found myself comparing my wedding to a wedding of a friend who is getting married around the same time Mr. Hawk and I are. Trust me, it's not a competitive streak of who-is-outdoing-who I feel, but rather a feeling that I am so behind on planning!

This couple, who are very close friends of Mr. Hawk's, became engaged a few months after us; however, they decided to have a shorter engagement and get married a couple weeks before we will be married. I'll admit that I was a bit surprised, but it didn't bother me because I knew it was what would work best for them. (And they did it taking our wedding into consideration, which they definitely didn't have to do!) What has begun to send me panicking is hearing the progress they've made.

Image Via Wallpaperez, From 20th Century Fox's Bride Wars

Now the bride-to-be is lucky in that she is the youngest of three girls. This isn't her parents' first wedding and over the years they've gained some insight and developed contacts. Additionally her reception is more of an all-inclusive deal with florist, catering, etc., which means less leg-work to find individual vendors. I just feel like I've been working at this forever and am still far behind! When they booked their honeymoon, when they sent out their STDs, and when I found out the bridesmaids dresses were ordered, I felt a panic in my belly and my mind start to race. Shouldn't I have (insert task here) done by now? Am I behind?

Like I said earlier, I know it's silly. I can't say that I've completely overcome it yet, but I am trying to focus on us and all of our accomplishments to date. Being as Type-A as I am, I know we're not behind schedule because I keep that wedding checklist close to my side! I just have to keep telling myself that we are right where we are supposed to be.

Do you ever find yourself comparing yourself to other brides? How do you get focused back on your own wedding?